Monday, July 30, 2007

yey.thank you.

moe seem so strict on the whole scheme and program caz of the fact that they are paying for our studies. i dont blame them thou. just hope i can pull through.

orientation (again) was not too bad..
just that i was pretty quiet on the whole compared to a number of others (again) thoughout the whole thing.
it reminded me of jj's orientation and the things which happened there and then,
the regrets i felt once again, and the fact that i miss crescent was throbbing all over my being (i felt it the strongest this morn when i was eating milo powder straight from its packet caz it reminded me of obs and tt some pple i know would have galdly joined me and pple were like looking at me incredously..its like.)
i dunno if im mad or when i can completely shrug off this feeling and my dependency upon knowing that there are pple out there who would act the way i would..so that i would stop doing against-the-flow actions just so i can keep that burning flame inside me going..the one that i identify with so strongly up until now..
and it doesnt help things when su nign was there to remind me of those stuff when we talk..thou i really appreciate her presence or i would have died.haha.
mayb its the fact that i still feel insecure inside and that i need sth to relate to, and have chosen that sth in which i have grown so attached to over the 4 yrs of my life i was there, and have moulded me into what i am today (screwed up or not).

wa.ok.that chunk there is like super long haha.

anw.its back to all the ballet and stuff b4 sch starts next week.
i really think i am too weak for the exam.shites.

i just finished reading harry potter!haha ok random and u may think im slow.but ya.
not too bad on the whole..just tt..ok i dun noe how to put my finger on it.

by Miss Pek at 17:18 |