Sunday, March 06, 2005

class outing yesterdae din turn out as i expected.
izit mi-or izit the class tts breakin up?
haix.

anw.i reali duno how to face the world again.
my granmother like tot i got 11 pts for 9 subs
n i duno how many pple she told bout it le.
omg omg omg omg.
ok i feel so lousy now.
6 subs compared to 9 subs is a whole lot of diff..
this is reali bad.reali reali bad.

my mood swings at home is gettin reali hellish too.
i duno izit mi-
or am i smothered by the overwhelming concerned showered
onto mi by them?
or izit the wae they wan mi to repeat my every statement?
or tt im ventin my irritations on them caz i hav to bottle them all up
when im outside?
in any case.
im feelin reali screwed up rite now.

u dun see it.u juz dun.
its reali hard to spell out every single thing everytime.
n i dun understand y u hav to keep harpin on it.
izit sth ur tryin to convince urself-
or is there the truth ur tryin to steer clear frm?
or tt its juz some excuse.
ok im super confused.

im sorry.
i sense the sadness frm ur eyes.
tt i cant be there for u.
tt i act so ignorant at times.
but im not one of them.
u din giv mi a chance to sae anithing.
or shld i blame myself for bein such a coward?
hus fault izit?the wae i see it-
its mine n urs.

by Miss Pek at 10:24 |